You know the saying “Once in a Blue Moon”? It refers to the rare occurrence on which two Full Moons fall in the same calendar month. May is exactly one of those months, with a Full Moon in Scorpio on the 1st of May and another Full Moon in Sagittarius on the 31st.

Two Full Moons in one month tell you a little bit about the emotional charge associated with May, though they both carry distinctly different flavours and energies. Both are incredibly profound - the first one at an emotional level and the second one on the level of our beliefs and higher ideals.

Scorpio Full Moons can be intense (as anything to do with Scorpio) and you may have already been feeling the build-up over the last few days - I certainly have! So of course, in this newsletter we also go deep. We touch on a subject often considered taboo in the manifestation space and go deep into our shadow with this issue’s journaling prompts. Deep, dark and profound can still be full of beauty and renewal and that’s exactly what I hope you will find within yourself during this time.

Lots of love,

Chrissy

May 1: The Full Moon in Scorpio coincides with a conjunction between Mercury and Chiron in Aries. Deeply buried emotions could come up, but a new way of thinking is available to us which helps with processing and healing what's been buried.

May 3: Mercury enters Taurus and our minds become calmer, slower and much better able to focus for longer periods of time. It’s a good time to tackle any paperwork, learning or conversations that require patience and perseverance.

May 6: Pluto stations retrograde, which means it’s time to work on inner transformation over outer transformation. The Full Moon in Scorpio will have already planted some seeds. Now it’s time to follow up on what’s been revealing itself.

May 7: Pallas conjuncts Neptune in Aries. This is an excellent day to create a strategy for achieving something you’ve been dreaming about. Wisdom and pragmatism are available in equal measures to vision and audacity.

May 11: The Sun in Taurus sextiles Jupiter in Cancer. This is a beautifully supportive aspect which brings an extra dose of good luck to all of our endeavours. If there’s one day in May to take a risk and put yourself out there, it’s today!

May 13: Vesta enters Aries asking us to shift the focus of our devotion from unity and the common good to ourselves. It becomes crucial now to fill your own cup before you try to help anybody else.

May 14: A triple conjunction between the Sun, Mercury and Ceres in Taurus makes us reconsider how we’ve been nourishing our bodies. This is also a day where sparks of brilliant insight are available, especially around the topics of values and finances. Pay attention to any new ideas that come in around this day.

The first Full Moon of May is setting the stage for some intense transformation. Anything to do with Scorpio is never surface-level so this Scorpio Moon is asking us to go deep and acknowledge those emotions that have been deeply buried and hidden from view.

Here’s the thing that’s uncomfortable about this: In most cases, we don’t bury emotions like joy or love or gratitude. We tend to bury those icky, nasty ones that are difficult to accept. Emotions like fear, resentment, jealousy, anger, guilt or shame, to name just a few examples.

All those times you’ve said that you’re fine when you’re really not? When you rejected an emotion because it doesn’t fit your personality or the way you view yourself? Those intrusive thoughts you’ve pushed away because they’re low-vibe? Under this Full Moon they are asking to be seen and acknowledged, because that is the only way to release them.

With Mercury conjunct Chiron in Aries on the same day, ego wounds in particular could show themselves if they’ve been ignored for too long. This is also something to bear in mind with your interactions with other people. Chances are that if you’re reading this newsletter you’re already quite self-aware and have done a lot of inner work, but the same might not be true regarding the people around you, so it’s important not to take things personally when you see others speaking and acting from their wounds.

Of course we can’t speak about the challenges without also speaking about the opportunities in this. It’s easy to underestimate just what a tremendous amount of energy and effort it costs to keep emotions suppressed over a long time. Now imagine all of that energy became available to focus on other things, like appreciation of your loved ones, or working on a passion project or your creative hobbies and how different life could look. This is the true transformative power of a Scorpio Moon.

Some fun ways to celebrate this Full Moon include:

A Full Moon in Scorpio is the perfect time to talk about some of the more taboo aspects of manifestation, like the idea of manipulation. Once you’ve manifested a few things successfully for yourself, it’s only natural to start wondering if it’s possible to do the same for or on behalf of other people. There can be many different motivations for this - perhaps you just want to help a loved one fulfil a deep desire, or you want your favourite sports team to win the championship, or you wish to get back with your ex who’s ignoring your texts, or you just want karma to do its thing with somebody who hurt you.

This is obviously dicey terrain and so a lot of manifestation teachers will simply tell you that it’s not possible and you should instead focus on yourself. Fair advice, but not entirely true. There are entire systems and mystery schools based in large parts on manifesting for or on behalf of someone else. They just call these practices hexes, curses or magic spells. If that made you recoil a little bit, there’s a good reason for that. These practices work, but there is enormous risk associated with it.

For one, we need to consider the emotions that are attached to a given situation. The desire to manifest something for someone else usually stems for a strong emotional charge - otherwise you just wouldn’t care enough. This could be something like the pain of watching someone you care about go through a difficult time, or a sense of guilt and shame that comes with wanting something from someone that they don’t seem to want to give you. And if you manifest from a feeling of pain, guilt or shame - guess what? You’re creating situations that create more pain, guilt or shame in return.

But maybe it stems from a place of love instead? Maybe you just know that if your friend left their toxic workplace they’d be so much happier, or if you could get back with your ex you could build a much better future together? This is where the second stumbling block comes in, because as well-intentioned as these desires may be, chances are they are stemming from the ego. The truth is, we have no way of knowing what is truly best for the other person in the big overall scheme of things. We rarely even understand ourselves on a deep enough level to truly grasp why certain things are happening for us. The idea that we can know and understand them for another person can only ever come from the limited perspective of the ego. And when the ego tries to manipulate, the ego will very quickly get a reality check.

Here are some examples of how I’ve seen this work out in practice: You get back with your ex but then you break up again and it’s even more painful the second time around. You get a promotion by getting your rival to back out of their application but then end up hating the job. Misfortune befalls someone who hurt you in the past but then you discover more about their circumstances and motivations and are overcome by feelings of regret, guilt and shame.

These are not so much punishments as lessons in what happens when you let the ego do a job it was never designed to do. Still, as you can see, this is dangerous territory, which is why many teachers will tell you to stay entirely away from it. However, there is a way you can influence an outcome for someone else which is not only safe, but can even help you manifest your own desires quicker and easier. The key is in releasing the ego, by releasing any idea and notion of what exactly should happen for the other person and keeping things general.

So, instead of focusing on a phrase like “I wish my friend would just dump her toxic boyfriend”, focus on something like “I wish for the highest and best outcome in my friend’s and her boyfriend’s romantic situation.” Instead of “I wish my brother would make such and such decision” go with “I wish that my brother makes the most positive and supportive decision available to him.” By letting go of the idea that you somehow know what’s best for other people or how things “should” be, you are releasing the ego’s grip on the situation and removing any challenging emotions around it. If the situation is complicated and you’re in doubt, there is one phrase I return to again and again that has never let me down and it’s simply “I wish you well.”

Let me say this right off the bat: These are not “nice” or “pleasant” or “encouraging” questions. Uplifting? Yes, but in a deeply transformative and unfiltered way. We’ve done plenty of surface level work here. Now, under the Scorpio Full Moon it’s time to go deep and push past what’s been sapping your energy and holding you back. Chances are you will feel lighter, stronger and incredibly powerful afterwards.